What: Insecurity-an issue I am pretty sure EVERY woman deals with
Who me: UH….YEAH (in a super sarcastic voice)
So what am I doing about it…….
I am only into chapter 3 and have already taken some insecurities head on. Beth Moore also has a blog that you can follow regarding the book. I never thought I would have so much fun and relief reading and talking about my insecurities! Secure woman of the Lord…here I come! 
*****This is a more personal, thought provoking blog than normal…you have been warned*****
I have a heavy heart right now for those in Haiti and now those in California, as I’m sure most people do. It is hard for me to put into words my longing to help, my feelings of inadequacy, my desire to help those that have lost everything, but it is even harder/weirder to describe the feelings of assurance that I have in a time like this. Most people will understand and relate to the first few feelings, but others will not understand how I could have assurance and peacefulness at a time of chaos. Call me heartless if you want, but in all honestly I truly believe that the Lord has gone before us in all things and that he had reasons for it all.
I have a tendency to board up worries or problems that I face. I strongly believe that worrying gets you no-where, but like most I am guilty of it. When I really let myself get all worked up I can worry about the stupidest of things, like getting some where on time, planning a party just right, getting my piano to Dallas from Austin, or making sure the house is clean EVERY SINGLE time some one comes over. Yet, a disaster like 9-11, the Haiti earthquake, the current state of war that our country is in, the floods in California, the past hurricanes, tsunamis, and fires that our world has seen don’t cause me to worry. I know that the Lord has plans with these bigger disasters, I have faith that the Lord’s will will prevail in the coming days, months and years that follow. I have faith that Haiti will be built up again one day and that Haitians will worship the Lord again, if not already. Isn’t it funny how I can have faith in the Lord with these HUGE global issues, but with my personal mundane issues I worry. Funny…no…more like sad. It reminds me that I need to trust God with the simplest of things.
Please don’t get my assurance in the Lord confused with not caring. Like I said my heart hurts for those that are hurting, for the families that have lost family members, houses and belongings. My heart hurts when I find out things like our Pastor having cancer, or when my grandmother is having a tough time adjusting to a retirement home, or my parents office being broken into 4 times, or when my dear friends brand new apartment floods….but hurting for/with them and worrying for them are two different things. I say prayers for those things, for the people going through those things and I move on. I give it to God and I then I let God. Most of the time I feel inadequate in how to help, but if He shows me a way to help physically, emotionally or monetarily, I will. I can’t even fathom those that don’t have the Lord in their hearts and how they go through the trials of life. I pray that they find the Lord soon.
I by no means have it all together….please don’t assume so. Just ask Chris, my husband, if he thinks I have it all together. I just stressed out today about getting the song that you hear playing now on this blog post! Crazy…I know. And as I write this I am wondering how I am going to get dinner ready and on the table for Chris by the time he comes home. But overall, I have faith in the Lord that he will guide me toward his will as long as I put in the effort to grow closer to Him. I trust that the Lord knows best. I just need to give him all the small things that I try to control too. Always something to work on.
Through these difficult times it does make me wonder how I can help. Are prayers enough? Is sending money enough? I wish I could do more. Am I missing a sign from the Lord? So many questions that I have. But for now, the way I think I CAN help, the Lord’s will if you will, is www.churcheshelpingchurches.com. Churches Helping Churches is not trying to take away from any other relief effort, they are trying to effectively mobilize the churches to raise funds for relief. So many churches want to help, and now the Lords people can come together as one and give to a Nation in need together. This is an article that mentions the two main pastors of Churches Helping Churches, I like it best when the reporter says “Faith groups offer the fundamental social network for education, welfare and health in a nation with virtually no government — and that was true before the quake. .” This outreach does not only help rebuild the churches, they help the congregation of those churches, the communities and people of Haiti who may not be reached otherwise.
I leave you with these lyrics from Chris Tomlin’s “Let God Arise” :
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Hear the holy roar of God resound
Watch the waters part before us now
Come and see what He has done for us
Tell the world of His great love
Our God is a God who saves
Our God is a God who saves
Let God arise
Let God arise
Our God reigns now and forever
He reigns now and forever
His enemies will run for sure
The church will stand, she will endure
He holds the keys of life, our Lord
Death has no sting, no final word
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